A Day In The Life Of...

Yeh, I'm bored... Stuck in the libary again, man, I hate that my bus gets to college so early! and Martin has gone off to some Uni thing, so I all here all alone - its evil!

But, I only got to survive for 2 lessons and then Ad is coming to see me! Yaaaaay! and then I have English, but after that i'm goin up 2 his school to laugh at his ex-girlfriend... ha ha ha.. I can't wait... I'm such a nice person!!!

What else? Um.... I really don't know, nothing much seems to have happened recently... I've hardly been at college coz I have so many free periods where I can go home in, and so I've appered late to many, many history lessons.... I've also been off with heyfever a lot too, man it's so terrible this year! Its total crap!

O! and work sucks. It means I have no days off! 5 days at college then work on Saturday and Sunday! It's so rediculous! It wasn't so bad during study leave, but now it's like crazy!

Right, I'm gonna sneeze.... ACHOOOOOO! Lol...

Don't you find that some people are so incredibly stupid that it's all you can do to prevent yourself from smacking them with large heavy objects?

God, some people just annoy me. Well, ok, one person annoys me at the moment, but she is large enough to count as 7 people, so yes, some people... I'm so creul, but they deserve it, really they do...

Ooh, but yay! I've just started reading Life of Pi in English which is absolutly brilliant! and I've also changed hair colour! I've gone serious blonde! lol. But I miss Adam lots... I only saw him on Wednesday, but that's still been far too long... I love him so much ^_^ He's so totally my bishee!

Well, off to stats with no calculator I go...

Au revoir!

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Moderate
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	High
Antisocial:	High
Borderline:	Very High
Histrionic:	Very High
Narcissistic:	Very High
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Moderate
-- Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Information --

That's not looking too good is it? lol...

God, what is it with me and being constantly bored at the moment?

Ok, so yesterday I achieved the world record for shortest day at college ever - I spent 4 mins there, and then went home. Lol. Basically i went to go pick up my art folder so I could do some work on it at home. Fun.

So yes, I am putting 'finishing touches' to my unit 1 & 2 work, which will occupy my weekend seen as Adam has been 'grounded' or some such stupidity... grr... I can't see him till like, MONDAY! That's AGES! Just because he got home late last Monday... Oh well...

What else.... uh... I've been called a whore a lot this week... which is always highly entertaining... Um... Kerry thinks that Dublin is the capital of Holland. I annoyed Stu highly by phoning him at home yesterday when he was ill... Tee hee... and aside from that this week has been highly dull!

Oh-spent bank holiday Monday with Ad. Went up Merry Hill, then to my house, and then to K'ford. The whole day! It was so great! Tho he did get grounded for it... so in retrospect we prolly shouldn't have stayed out so late... lol...

Also - Tonly Blair won the election - which displeased me greatly - until I found out it was his birthday, at which point I thought him winning was sweet ^_^ lol... Im so easliy pleased...

Tho I still think his grammar is appauling...

I'd personally like to take this oppotunity to say - I hate you Martin. I hate you, and I hate your love life and I hate your texts which are not even meant to go to me!

Grrrr!

Lol. I don't mean it. You know I love you really, but yes, the text that you sent me last night - which I assume was not even meant to go to me at all seen as I didn't understand any of it - could not have come through at a more inconvenient time...

And that is all I'm going to say on the matter...

Until I kick you on Monday of course.

So, anyway, updating. Um, turned up to art drunk on Friday again. It was funny. Tho I've decided it's the last time I'm going to do it. Trying to colour in the lines after several Jack Daniels is almost an impossible task... lol...

What else... saw my man LOADS this week! Last Saturday we went shopping to buy him new clothes (trainers and jeans - SO totally sexy I might add), then I saw him for a little while on Monday after I finished college early in Kingswinford (and a spork was purchased! SPORK!), and then I saw him Wednesday at the caff, where we got attacked by this lady in the bus stop who told us that she could see we were in love... lol.. it was so funny. Then, I saw him on Thursday coz he came to see me during my HUGE free period at college. That was really nice. We sat in Ciao and drank coffee with Fi and Rach, then spent dinner with kay and Sophie and Mart and everyone. Its so nice - they all seem to really like him - which is a good sign ^_^ Um, then I saw him briefly at merry hill when he was buying his new phone - but I WAS drunk at the time - lol, and then yesterday I went to his house! It was so... just... YAY! That guy is so damn beautiful! ...Can a guy be beautiful? I dunno... but yeah... I happy!

Anything else? Uh... Oh yeah! So many romances blossoming at the moment at college! It's sweet ^_^ I love to see people happy! Lovelly ^_^ Just thought I'd give that a mention... lol...

Aside from that, nothing much to report! Back to history revision for Steph! Yay!

Over & out!

I love that word... Have been using it all day...

Ever have those weird days that can't quite decide if they are going to be good or not?

Yesterday was definatly one of those days...

Ok, so I woke up in a fantastic mood. I'd been to the caff the night before - which was bound to put me in a good mindset because it meant I got to see Ad! Hoorah! Then, realised that I had to spend an hour finishing off my print in art - which kinda killed my mood a little (even though it has actualy turned out really nicely so I'm very happy with that).

Then I had English and my mood shot right back up again suprisingly as we were writing this poem based around a Dutch painting... Hillarious. I dunno why I found it so funny - I think I was still a little punch drunk from the night before... but then I retreated to the libary to finish off that damn history essay and finally the night before caught up on me. Damn... I could hardly open my eyes to look at what I was typing by the end of it - bloody headache... So, wrote consent form to get me out of college early.

Then, coz I started to feel better I called Ad and he'd been give the afternoon off, so we met down K'ford and walked up to Wordsley park. You know in movies and on tv, when they have the 'perfect' date, a summers day, sun shining, stretched out on the grass, that sort of thing... Well, I'd say that was pretty much it. It was gorgeous. Perfect. and I very nearly managed to wrestle him out of all his money! lol... It really was one of those moments where you have to step back for a few seconds - just to stop and think 'hey, this is real and it's happening right now!'. I dunno... Maybe I'm just getting sentimental in my old age - lol.

So, after sucessfully throwing large amounts of grass and daisys over each other and managing to get him out of his hoodie (which he'd managed to get completely tangled in - lol...) we started to walk back to K'ford. There was a very sudden and very surreal 5 mins on our way back when it began raining and (I kid you not) HAILING to the extreeme. Seriously! It was like being in a mini typhoon! I've never seen anything like it! Luckilly we happened to be passing by this shop with a canopy over it so we could shelter for a few mins till it stopped. Then there were 2 of the most beautiful and bright rainbows in the sky. It was like that whole few mins of crazyness just happened to create them just to add to the perfection of the whole thing. Highly romanticised I know, but it's still a nice thought. ^_^

And so yes, I was in a great mood. I hopped onto the bus to take me home and waved bye to Ad... Which is when a car went into the back of the bus. Apparantly it had taken the wing mirrors off the cars in front as well as it sped past. It was highly dodgy. So I text Ad to tell him that my bus had just been hit by a car - and almost died of shock when a few hours later he finally text back - telling me that he'd just got back from the hospital after being hit by a car!

I couldn't believe it! He's ok thank God - caught his left side which apparantly is very painful, and he's been having trouble walking today, but thankfully seems fine otherwise. I'm going to go visit him to make sure he's ok hopefully tomorrow (no kinky nurses uniform involved before anyone asks...) so I can't wait for that...

Oh well... what a dodgy day eh? Completely surreal... Never a dull moment and all that...

So much work to do over the holidays... Better get back to it I guess...

Yes! I've finished my art exam finally!

The second half was this morning - so that means that now it's all done and out of the way - happiness! Thso is did involve me slicing my fingers - again, only this time more seriously - there was blood all over the lino and everything! yay! But it was not enought to be sent home apparantly... so it was all in vain...

Had an arguement with Chris last night. Well, more like I listned while he argued at me... He claims that I'm "ignoring him" - which I guess is true - for the lst few days I've just been generally pissed off with him - but that is only because he is continuously accusing me of spreading things about him and insulting him or his new girlfriend or whatever else he can dream up to accuse me of... Which gets really annoying after a while - especially as I've not actually said anything - in fact I wouldn't be so pissed of if it wasn't that the other day in art when everyone was slagging him off I was actually defending him - even though I really would have been expected to join in with them. But no - I stood up for him and all he does is accuse me of things I havn't done! Bloody annoying!

Well, yeah, he appeared online, accusing me as usual... and then decided instead to change to insulting me and comparing me to his new girlfriend (who is 100% better than I ever was don't y'know....) which basically included "she's not selfish, not vain, and not a whore in anyway unlike you" How nice eh? So stupid... I'd moan more - but I can't be bothered...

Yes.  I have apparantly been granted the power of immortality by Ad - or I will be as soon as he becomes Emporer of the world anyway...  lol...  He's so crazee...

I am bored!  I stole this quiz thing off mysticlynx 's lj - so that is going to be my entertainment for the next half hour of so...  enjoy!

Love
1. Have you ever been in love? Yes.  I am now! Tee hee!
2. Describe "love." It depends on the person.  I love my friends differently to how I love my family, but if you mean like proper 'love' I'd say it is this weird feeling you get whenever you see sum1 - like driving over a bridge really really fast when your stomach goes all weird (like on the 256) - thats how I think you know when you really love someone...
3. Tis better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all...is this true or not?  Um...  I guess so - but love can hurt real bad - so it depends...
4. If you could have anyone in the world love you, who would it be? I don't think I like the idea of forcing sum1...  But I'd say Ad - coz then I know I'd love him just as much back ^_^
5. Are you scared of love or to love? In a way - but when the right person comes along it's impossible not to!
6. Has your heart ever been smashed and broken? I'd say yes - but I've managed to recover from it - so I guess it only seemed bad at the time.
7. Have you ever been dumped? yes - but it wasnt too bad.
8. Have you ever had to dump someone? yes again - but I'm gentle - lol...
9. Would you hurt your ex physically if you had the chance? No - I'd rather get cold hearted revenge!  mwhahahahahahahaha...  no, I'm not tht creul really...
10. What advice to you give to those who have yet to experience love? Um...  enjoy it while it lasts but don't hang on to things that don't seem to work.

Sex
1. Ya done it? Yes
2. How many positions and styles have you tried? I dunno..   a few?  wat a dodgy question....
3. Which is better: sex with someone really sexy or sex with someone you love? Sum1 you love - helps if they r sexy 2 tho!
4. Whats more important: your partner pleased or you pleased? Both.  Thts the whole point after all...
5. Should you save sex for someone special? Yes.
6. Describe the best place to have sex. Anywhere!!!  lol...  no, somwhere romantic.  and private.
7. You ever cybered before? Yes!  It is funny coz I jst mess it up coz I cant take it seriously... lol... 
8. Which do you like better: making love or sex? Making love sounds so much nicer - but either is ok...
9. If you had one thing you want the opposite sex to know about sex, what is it? Um....  not to get so uptight or nervous about it!  It's jst fun after all - nothing to stress about!

Money
1. Have a job? if so how much ya make? No, I need 1 tho.
2. What do you want your career to be? A lawyer.
3. Which would you rather have as a job: a person that puts live and healthy animals to sleep, or a proctologist that works without gloves? Um...  I dunno - I am easily grossed out tho...
4. Would you ever be a stripper? If I needed the money then why not?
5. Have you ever sold illegal drugs? No...Drugs are wrong.
6. If you had a dollar, what would you buy? Well, change it to pound - then I'd buy... um...  prolly phone credit.
7. Green or colored money: which ones better? I dunno.... um....  coloured?  I didn't know we have diffrent money...
8. Save a penny of throw it away? Save it.  I need all I can get.
9. Checks, cash, or credit card? Cash.  If I can see the money I'm less likly to part with it.
10. Simple question: what do you buy with your money? Credit, food, going out (cinemas and stuff), art supplies, make up, clothes - the usual really...

Body (or, The One Where Mystic finds out she has no shame XP)
1. How tall are you? Not very! lol
2. How big is your chest or package? 34 DD - Tee hee...  I love my boobs I do!
a. Men: circumsized or natural? Um....  I dunno........
3. Pubic hair: is yours shaved or not? Dodgy question...
4. If you could change one thing about your body, name it: Um...  I dunno...  I'd prolly not change anything much...  maybe my feet - I jst generally hate them...
5. Have any tattoos or piercings? Ears.
6. Birthmarks or scars anywhere? Yeah, I have a long list of different things dotted around...
7. Work out? How often? Um..  sumtimes....  With my hip hop aerobics tape of corse!
8. Widows peak or no? wat?
9. Flexible or not? I'm flexible! I can dislocate my shoulders - so I can do lots of weird things - lol...
10. Can you lick your elbow? Yes!  One advantage of the shoudlers dislocating - I can just about manage it...  just...

Values
1. What's more important: love or money? Love. But I'll never say no to money!
2. Drunk driving: have you ever? No - I prolly wudn't either.  I dont trust me in things that move.... 
3. Smoking cigarettes: good or bad? Bad!!!!  Wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong!!!!!  I can deal with cigars occasionally coz they are classy - cigarettes are jst common.
4. Casual sex: good or bad? As long as it's done carefully - I wouldn't do it personally...
5. God: exists, doesn't, don't know: I don't know.
6. Lies: do you lie often? No - I am generally an honest person - unless it's white lies to make people feel better...
7. Would you ever cheat on someone? No way!
8. The birth control pill: stopping God's work or a good thing for woman? It's a very good thing.

Random Questions
1. Describe your feet. I hate them.  I hate ALL feet...
2. When's the last time you washed your bed sheets? Um...  abt a week ago....
3. Do you sleep with any stuffed animals? No - I do keep my phone with me tho in case I feel the need to text at 3am...
4. What DO you sleep in? P-jimmy jams!!!
5. Have you ever been through an earthquake? yes!  That one which had it's epicentre in Himley.  I slept thru it tho....  how random is that?  an earthquake in the middle of England...  dodgy...
6. Collect anything? Not really...
7. How many pairs of shoes do you have? Lots and lots!  tee hee!
8. If you could kiss ANYONE you know who would it be? Adam!  Right now!  I miss him sooooooo much!!!
9. Your worst feature about you overall is: I am paranoid - and over - analyse things far too much...  internaly obsessive I think is what Martin called it the other day...

 

There we have it!  Yay - fun!  lol...

Yes! Im off to bed now... but wanted to update this b4 I went...

I havn't touched this thing for ages - mostly because of my stupid art exam that is taking FOREVER! I swear - if I see one more leaf ever again then I swear I am going to scream! Oh well, a week or so and it will be over at least!

Um, brief update on the last few weeks. Well, there is the whole crazy love life thing going on - so I guess I'll deal with that first... so, about 5 weeks ago I split up with Chris on the sunday of half term, then, that Wednesday I went up to the Rock cafe and met a friend of my wife's boyfriend - Adam - and... um... yeh, we got drunk and things happened... Tee hee... (not THAT sort of thing b4 any sick minds are at work here - lol). But then, the next day I got back together with Chris (yes, I know... it sounds really dodgy but still... I never said my love life could make sense...) which lasted for about a week until the next Friday when we broke up again... and then I kinda got together with Adam again by the Monday - and now I've been with him for the past 3 weeks ^_^

Confused? Yeah... I think a lot of people were - lol...

So yeah, now that everyone is nice and up to date - the present day I'm stuck at home with art coming out of every corner of my bedroom tht needs to be finished. I spent 7 hours in the art room yesterday! 7! That is a long time for sum1 with as short an attention span as I have! I was proud of me tho...

Tho I did go out to Merry Hill last night with Adam - after a quick visit to my house. The poor guy. Having to meet my crazy family... but then again they were behaving themselves - and mom likes him! Yay! This is always a good thing! She called him a 'cutie' this morning - which made me laugh endlessly! I dont think he was too chuffed to hear about tht one either - lol... but still... he's lovelly, and pretty, and gorgeous, and sweet, and funny, and spiffy, and crazy, and random, and a bit of a bully! lol... he's not really a bully - he just pokes me a lot and then fails to recognise my constant winning! lol...

It's going to be such a long wait till Wednesday - which is when I next get to see him. It's such a shame that he doesn't go to my college - but then again maybe it's a blessing in disguise - after all it means that any time we get to be toghter is extra special which is a very nice way of looking at it (or - you could use the version that one of my friends gave me the other day - "the less you see of him the less of him you can find to annoy you" - I quite liked that - lol) Oh well... I miss him lots >.<

and I would type more - but I'm very tired and sleepy and need to txt Adam back at some point. That boy costs me far too much on credit - lol...

Nighty night!

You should see what I look like right now!

Its 10 in the morning, I'm at my pc with my pjs on, my hair a complete mess, no make up (shock horror) and in a very un-me like way - I don't care!

Yes - the amazing has happened. That good mood from yeasterday has carried on through to today - and I am feeling artistic still. Always good during an art exam.

And so - to celebrate my good mood I'm having a chill session this morning. Well - ok, so I have watched some history programme about the civil war that I recorded last night (but it was very good - even if there was no Tristam >.<) in bed with my brekkie (pancakes - yum ^_^) and now I'm just having a nose around on the net before I go out for a meal later.

I'm looking forward to the rest of today ^_^

Last night Martin came round and bought my guitar for me to play with. I'm slow at picking it up - but I have learnt a little of the intro to Nirvana's "come as you are" - and so I was very proud. I tried to phone random people to amaze them with my guitar skills - but no-one seemed to be answering their phones... so my genious went un-noticed...

I've also managed to complete my first piece of large artwork for my exam. I'm really happy with it - it's just an oil of loads of grasses - v simple, but still, it looks quite good, and I'm happy that my art seems to be moving along so quickly. My GCSE art exam took ages for me to get into - but thankfully I seem to have settled into this one well - so yay!

If anyone knows any artists that might be relevent to the title "beneath your feet" then I would be v happy to hear about them! That's the only thing I'm struggling with at the moment... artist research... but still... I'll get there...

I can't be arsed to update properly

I just feel like having a bit of a rant about how amazing it is that I have been doing my art exam preperation work all morning long and am actually ENJOYING it!!! It's a shock!!! and I'm not even all that bothered that my beautiful french ivory manicure is now more of a dirty brown/green colour.

I'm enjoying art! who would have thought it!

It's destined not to last too long tho - I'll get bored soon enough - lol...

I'm in a weirdly good mood. Well - good, but restless... I need somthing to occupy my mind for a while that is a little more challenging than art... In fact. I need some exercise... Yeah - that'll do me just nicely... I really fancy going up to the rock caff tonight. I might phone people and make them go with me... Tho it wudn't be as good as usual coz there are none of the K'ford people there... Bummer...

I'd go visit Miss Mel, but I don't think she's home... and I can't really leave the house right now as I'm the only one here for a few hours... *sigh* No wonder I'm feeling lonley...

Whee! martin is on the phone!!! toodles!

Ok. So I'm depressed.

No, that's not quite right... Its more that I'm tired, and emotional, and touchy and I am letting things get to me far too easily.

I've just had yet another night of literally NO sleep - as you can probably tell from the time I'm typing this. You know it's getting bad when you're updating your lj at 3 in the morning... But I have nothing else to do. I wrote some of my history essay earlier - but I found it too difficult to think about at this time of a morning (I found it difficlut yestaerday after noon - what chance do I have now?) and have also written a good few pages of fiction for adultfictionpress.net - never posted there before, so I'm thinking of making an account. That's if that is actually the adress of course... lol... If anyone asks I AM over 18!

I think I made Chris angry with me yesterday - well, ok, I KNOW I did... It's amazing. My parents threaten to throw me out the house and nothing... Chris says one thing against me - and suddenly I'm a mess... maybe it's coz I know that I'm the only one to blame... Its not nice. I shouldn't pick on him - I think it's a case of him being in the wrong place at the wrong time to be honest... He just happens to have got in the way of my emotional hormones - lol... But still - it makes me feel really guilty. Specially after all the support he's given me this week... I feel like a bad person >.<

But, I'm going to go do somthing else to consume my time for a while now... Dwelling on things can only make me feel worse - so I'm going to go make notes on my English Lit work.

Yes.

I AM that sad...

Yeah... I've had a stressful week full of arguements and illness and all that nasty stuff - but still... I'm feeling better today, hoping to throw myself into the 3 history essays I have planned for this weekend and to catch up on the English work I missed. I know... I'm sad and use college work as stress relief - but it works for me... so hey... lol

Um... This week I've not really done much... Thursday I had my stats exam - which went mildly considering... I don't think I will have done brilliantly on it - but hopefully I've done enough to get a decent C grade... I would be happy with that - anything lower and I'm gonna re-sit... Tho, as weird as it sounds, I thoroughly enjoyed sitting in that exam - I had a whole 90 mins to take my mind off everything else and just concerntrate on my work and, yeh, I'm weird... but still - I love stats when I'm stressed...

I then went with Martin to buy his guitar - and carried it all the way from the shop to college too! Then, the greatest honour did befall me as I was standing there with the guitar, and martin had gone to go and get my bag from the libary, and the hottiness that is CLIFF walked past and said I had a cool guitar!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CLIFF!!!!!!!! lmao.... I have so little life...

And then yesterday I didn't do much - cept burnt my arm with a hot glue gun - after specifically warning Stewart that his suggestion to use somthing that involved scalding hot sticky liquid was a very bad idea - and then went to the pub with Zo and Fiona and Rachel and Chris and some other random people that I don't know all that well (including Gav Mand - the guy who stalked me for about 3 months when I was going out with Mullany... scary... and Martin Mallion, the guy I disected a heart with... lol... I have some odd connections) which was v good - It only dawned on me today that the double G&T I bought was actually the first alcoholic drink I've ever bought at a bar! I usually get sum1 else to do it for me! So yay! Go me!!! lol...

Somehow, the G&T and vodka shots went straight to our heads (I rekon it was sumfink to do with the fact I'd just spent 2 and a half hours in the art room with Rob and so was already a woman on the edge... lol) and me and Zo were somewhat high on our way home "Look! It's a ramp!!!!! Where does the magical ramp go?!?!" lol... then this guy on the bus asked us if were we already pissed at about 1/4 to 6, and then my bus driver to Pensnett scared me. I had pressed the bell to get off, and walked to the front of the bus, and i had this convo with the driver:

"Are you cold?"
"Cold?"
"Yeah - in that skirt?"
"Oh! Suprisingly not..."
"I am sure that your boyfriend would have enjoyed it!"
"yeah - that or he thought I was stupid for wearing it in this weather... lol"
"So, you've got another half then?"
"Yeah"
"Ooooh, shame! See you later"
"yeah..... thanks, bye"

I was very scared.... lol... I've only seen that driver once or twice before, he must do the later shift of the 232 (the dodgy S'nett bus...) so yeah... I'm scared of bus drivers... lol...

Anyway - I'm cold. I'm still in my PJs and havn't actually had any sleep at all for the last few nights, so I need to go paint my face on... Toodles kids ^_^

I am getting REALLY bad at not ever updating this thing... Shame on me! lol...

Um... any news... Not really... had a busy two weeks, have been out far more than I prolly should have done last week coz I'm now ill - lol, but aside from that nothing terribly exciting to report...

Went to the Rock Cafe for the first time last Wednesday (after a fantastic Englsih lesson which I SO did not skip to got to Chris' house... at all...) which was pretty ok. For all the moaning I've done about how scrubby the place is, its actually not all that bad... I went up there wiv Chris and Kerry and Kerry's friends and we saw Pete and I even saw Charlotte!!! Yay!!!! I love my Charlotte!!!! Even tho she did accuse me of being 2 months pregnant.... Where that came from I'm really not sure... lol...

And... I really cant be bothered to update any more... lol... so, it's goodbye from me!!! lol

It's been ages since I've touched this thing..

Mostly coz I've been so busy these last few weeks! I'm suprised really - January is usually a boring time for me - but this year has proven to be somewhat different. I would update and say all that's happened - but I'm too lazy - and I need to go do exercise videos... lol

So yeah, only real news of this week was what happened on Friday - basically that I went with martin to Miss Newton's daughter's funeral. We then had to walk home from Kinver (which took about 3 hours - mostly becasue I led him the wrong way for half an hour... and then we got lost...)which led to lots of lorry drivers going past and beeping their horns at me - as well as a group of builders shouting at me from the Stewpony site. Tee hee hee. Then we went back to Martins and watched Secret Window (Johnny Depp! Yummitty yum yum!), but then by all accounts I had a little too much to drink, and ended up collapsing... which was not very fun...

So yeah... after worrying a few people half to death I apparantly got hime and collapsed on my bed and slept it all off - of course I felt a bit sick in the morning, tho I didn't have a headache or anything... but yeah... It actually made me cry becasue I felt so stupid and couldn't remember any o it... Me - crying. It's a shock I know... But I worried Chris, which made me feel really upset & guilty coz I thought he'd hate me - but he doesn't and I have been forgiven and I'm really happy ^_^ Yay!

Apparantly I spent the whole time telling martin he "reminds me of that man... the one that talks a lot about things..." and also talking about "I love my man... he always knows how to make things better... he knows everything my man... that's why I love him ya'know..." lol... Tho it is true... I love Chris so so much, and I'm so thankful that he's not angry with me ^_^

I am really looking forward to next week tho, coz I'm gonna be going out on Wednesday with Kerry and Chris, and then Chris is coming round on saturday - which will be really good. Even though my house is a complete dive compared to his - which is sooooooo posh!!! Oh well... never mind... If he survives meeting my family then he'll be able to live through an afternoon at 'snet... lol

I'm gonna go exercise now - part of my new years diet... even tho I've decided that actual dieting would be pointless - so it's more of a healthy eating/get fit type thing. I've also had my hair chopped as incentive to tone up. I gotta look good to match the haircut! lol. It's a cool cut tho - very short and choppy, so yeah - in a few months time I will have changed some stuff in my lifestyle and hopefully I will be a completely new me ^_^ yay!

My God!

I'm having a panic day.

Seriously having a panic day.

Every little thing is sending me completely phyco! And I don't think I know why!

Well, no, actually - I think it's to do with the amount of work for college that I should have done but havn't done at all... My God - Today has literally been the first day that I've been in the house all day - apart from Xmas of course, but that doesn't count - and so I've done NOTHING!!!

Result?

A very stressed me.

It's amazing! For ages now I've lost my stress - but it's all coming back to haunt me!!! Nooooo!!! I had been doing so well... And the headaches are starting up again... I hadn't noticed that they have subsided somewhat over the last few weeks - but they're back with avengance!!! Maybe it's the horrific amount of chocolate I've eaten the last few days that have casued it... hmmm...

Stressing aside - today has been pretty average, done some art, a bit of English... the usual really... I've decided that I'm destined to fail art - not just fail it, but fail it miserably, and that my English coursework is nowhere near as good as it should be. But still...

Yesterday was... well... just So great... lol... I met Chris in stourbridge at 9 (painfully early... but I managed it!) and we caught a bus (with a weird guy) to Merry Hill, where we *cough cough* behaved ourselves, and ate ice cream with tiny little pink spoons (well I did, Chris had the 'manly' big blue spoon), and drank HUGE coffees, and purpously walked past Waterstones a lot, and I looked in a lot of mirrors... (as always) and then we went to the cinemas to see Phantom of the opera with lots of Grannies (Tee hee hee - it was so funny! Like a sea of white perms!) which was very cool. That film has such cool songs ^_^ I'm going to go and see it again next week - not that I didn't watch it properly the first time of course... heh heh heh... But yeah - what a cool day!!!! Then I came home and watched my Benny and Joon dvd - which of course just made the perfect end to the day! ^_^

Tho, the stress I'm feeling today is desperatly trying to dampen the good mood that wednesday put me in... Stupid stress about stupid college... Only 5 more terms to go till I leave!!! How scary is that?? Lol...

I need sleep... I ache... *Moans*

Yes!!!

I'm free!!

And by that of course I mean that I have finished work at Waterstones. Dear dear... I will kinda miss it - I loved the sense of actually having some purpose to my days - but still - it will be great to get all tht free time back! Plus - it's given me inspiration for my first new years resolution! I have decided that i really ought to start reading more - and so I'm gonna buy and read at least 1 book per month! Book for january is 'Big Bad Wolf' by James Patterson. I've read to page 2 at the moment! lol.

But work today was actually bearable. I did many, many stupid things (more than usual!) - but it was still bearabel - even after the "Neil Armstrong biography? Yeah, that'll be in the... space... man...... section..." comment. Which is quite possibly the most stupid thing i've said in all the time I've worked there. Oh well...

So - what else, um Christmas!!!! Of course - Christmas had come and gone!!! Not that I've really noticed - I have felt so un-christmassy this year! Apparantly that's a side effect of working in retail. bah. But yeah - had a good Xmas, the family were drunk as per usual, and I traditionally made a mess of some aspect of the dinner - this time the sausages - it wasn't my fault tht that they were crappy non skinning sausages... the leftovers made v good sausage mush anyway... is it safe to eat sausage meat raw??? Meh - i did it anyway... and it's real nice too! Yum!!!

I had tonnes of cool stuff too - inc. my new mobile (Yayness!!!!) and lots of clothes and cds (specially the Abba cd... classic...) and a Benny and Joon dvd *dies of hottiness* and a Mcfly calender *dies of hottiness again* and a Johnny depp calender *explodes with hottiness* and a Johnny depp book *implodes with hottiness* and make up, and my James Patterson, and chocolate. Lots and lots and lots of chocolate! Scrummy!!!! I'm gonna be SO fat my the end of this holiday!!! - hence my second new years resolution - I need to join a gym. Badly. And so I'm looking into memberships as we speak over the net - tho they are all really expensive - so I need a new job first!

Um... not really all tht much else to report. working boxing day was like a living hell coz I had to deal with Steve and a hangover all day. God I hate Steve so much. I would not have been able to stick a permanant job there just due to him. Thank God I will never have to see his ugly mushy face again. Such a bastard... I'm so going to go and throw books at him now that I can't get fired for it.

And thats just about all folks! To say that I havn't updated in so long I havn't really been up to that much... What a boring life I lead...

However - i need bed now - as i have to be up early tomorrow (second day in a row - can u believe it??? I dunno if my body clock can take this punishment) so that I can go to Stourbridge and see Chris!!! Yayness to the extreeme!!!! I am really excited!!! I just hope I don't manage to go and do somthing stupid in front of him - well - it's inevetable that I will manage somthing - but I just hope it won't be too bad... but yeah - I'm looking forward to it so much!!! Yayness!!!!

I dunno why I'm updating this so early in the morning...

Apparantly it's because there is nothing good on TV, and I'm too tired to sit and do anything else. However, all is good coz it's my fave day of the year today!!! YAY!!!! I love Christmas Eve - and I've always loved it far more than Xmas day itself - very weird, but still...

Today is just going to be SO great - I've decided it will be. It has no choice.

So, this week, I have worked, a lot, and have developed an irrational fear of books falling on my head while I'm serving people (a Ben Elton book suddenly fell off the shelf and hit me while i was talking to a customer... I was scared...). But, I've finished for Xmas now! In fact - I only have 2 more shifts to do! TBH, I will miss the place - for all the moaning I do it's actually a very good job - I just enjoy complaining is all... Tho it will be great to have all that free time back again ^_^ Yay!

Yesterday at work was dead. Seriously dead. We served hardly anyne, and spent the last hour and a half stood behind the tills talking. We had so little to do! Aside from this one woman, who had come in asking about travel writing, and she then came back to the till a few mins later and leans across to me and asks
"Do you have any books on... tantric sex..." and I was like... "Uh... um... health?" and she ran off... It was scary... I was completely not expecting it! nd why would she go and ask the youngest member fo the staff when there were 3 of us standing doing nothing - the other two being in their 20s? Scary.

Oh! and! My Keith got fired!!! Actually fired! I can't believe it! He was such a lovely little Keith and then they fired him! Well, ok, so turning up to wrok 2 and a half hours late was a little extreeme - specially when it happened on several occasions... but still... I'm really shocked. Boxing day is going to be really boring without a small Keith to play with... but never mind... I'll get over it... one day *holds back tears* lol...

Uh - apart from that i've spent most of my time on MSN with Chris on webcam - wow, he has actually seen me first thing in a morning and didn't run away sreaming "there is no God!" - I feel so special. However, i don't think i will be able to talk to him today coz i've got headaches from looking at the screen for too long... lol... Tho i think I scaredhim yesterday - or should I say martin scared him yesterday... lol, I love ya really mart, specially since u let me open my prezzies!!! Yay! He bought me a mcfly calender *dies of hottieness* a scarf, some cool long hobo gloves and a santa hat for my phone! lol it's beyond cool! It flashes whenever it rings! Spiffy is the word!

Well, I'm off now. the incense I'm buring today is making me choke, and so I need to go fumigate the room

My God.

If I have to spend one more second of my time in Waterstones then I WILL kill myself. I hate that Goddamn place!!! ARGH!!!

But what I hate even more are stupid customers - the sort that have no idea of what the book is called or who it's by - but can very helpfully give you a basic idea of the plot or the name of a character... Because then my job is simple! Just remember which of the 50,000 different books you read yourself (because after all - you have read every one of them personally) and go find it - coz you're sure to know exactly where it is.

STUPID PEOPLE!!!

Bah!

One woman came in today asking for books by this author who 'had been on the radio this afternoon' who did some sci-fi crap. I mean, really. Would I have any idea on ANY sci-fi??? I'm scared of the bloody section! I avoid it at all costs in case it eats me or something! and then - when I (somehow) found the author she was on about - and when I told her I'd never heard of him before she called me stupid. Actually used the word "stupid". Sorry I'm not some weirdo Trekkie! (Apologies to any Star Trek/sci fi fans... but, you know, I'm tired and dont care who I'm insulting just now...)

Then a woman came in asking for a book, which could only be found in the air lock - in a box at the bottom of this HUGE pile of heavy boxes with random crap in them. So, I went and moved all the boxes, pulled a muscle all down my back which is now INCREDIBY painful, and then I couldn't find the bloody thing after that!

Grrrr!

At least I have a day off tomorrow. Otherwise the Waterstones customers would have not been best pleased with my service

"Can you look for a book for me please"
"No. I can't speak English"
"You are speaking perfect English right now"
".... No I'm not...."

In other news - I went to Wales on Sunday - and saw Ed Wood - a Johnny depp film where he dresses in women's clothing (v, v sexy!!!)- and had a little too much to drink... but still - that is all my family ever seem to do - so it's not tht unusual really...

This morning my wife came round and gave me the Benny and Joon dvd for Xmas!!! YAYNESS!!! OMG! i love it so much!!!! I havn't had chance to watch it yet - what with work and everything - but tomorrow I am not moving from my bed till I have watched it at least 3 times. Yum. You can't get enough Johnny Depp! *drools*

But - most importantly in recent news - I guess I'm going out with Chris now... Wow... It feels so weird! Specially since only just over a week ago I was engaged in some form of war with him (a war which he prolly know nothing about - but I felt I did some damn good ignoring back there... lol) But yeah... Wow... It's really great ^_^ Pretty amazing really after so many of my lj moans that he didn't like me... lol...

Lol - and I bet you never knew that Chris was the lead singer in 'Depeche Mode' did you??? Lol... I can outwit a 11 year old. *Feels orid of self*